i'm being impulsive and reckless again. takes me back to memories of a year ago. around the same time of the year, maybe 2 weeks earlier. same old snap decision to let go of the only stability i know. same reason if we're basing on the papers i've submitted. but the first one as an excuse. this time for real..
thinking twice for the same pros and cons. moolah being a big factor. this time though, i've got better plans laid out. one that i know will work to my advantage in the long run.
more decisions.
stay?
if i really want to be practical, it's moving back home that's the best option. but to give up the current freedom i have? i don't think i can deal with that. 8 years of living out of my parent's house means hell if i decide to move back in.
i've crossed out the second option. moving to a diff place is gonna be more costly. and i'll miss 13S. a lot.
so i guess that leaves me with stay. which is really what i want to do. and why i went back to work anyway. but then, i'm gonna need a source of income. for the next 12-18 months. but something that doesn't require real work that eats up all my time. maybe a part-time job that pays well. or at least enough for me to get by. the original plan is to do around 2 hrs of tutorial every day. should be enough for my needs. and will give me more than enough time to do what i have to do. and less stress that will make doing stuff easier. but then. i'll let you in on a little secret. i mean, sure, i love to teach. but do i really have what it takes to teach? i mean to teach as an income generating and as something that i wouldn't quit for the next year or so? another little secret: im not as confident as i seem to be. i know my english is better than some people. but do i have it in me to teach it? am i good enough? are my credentials good enough?
off to jobstreet. maybe i'll find something good. :)
back from jobstreet. did not find anything feasible.
i'll provide more details once i've made the final, final decisions.
update 7.22.10
ReplyDeletedecided to stop working altogether.
will have to ask (gasp!) support from parents.
may change mind again sometime in the future (sometime soon).
hates the fact that can't stop self from being fickle-minded.
hates that has the tendency to write in a bridget-jones-diary-ish kinda way (i.e. past few almost-sentences).
trying to stop self from typing number of cigarettes and alcohol consumption and typing v.v.g.
P.S. alcohol units = 0 (v.v.g.)