Showing posts with label random thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label random thoughts. Show all posts

Sunday, November 13, 2011

the number game

I wake up in the morning and I think I'm 28. I read some article about a 28-year old person and I think "oh, we're of the same age!". I get asked my age and I say I'm 28. And THEN, I realize, I'm F-ing 26!

I really don't know where those extra 2 years are coming from. It's happened so often lately and I really don't know why my mind thinks of the number "28" whenever something associated with my age comes up. I mean, don't people usually forget that they've aged and give out the age they were a couple of years back? Isn't that more common?

That just goes to show how slow-paced my life is. Who else subconsciously ADDS years to their age? It's not like I'm 16 and adding a couple of years makes me legal. I feel like the last year of my life has been dragged away and extended to more than its usual length. I feel like me celebrating my 26th birthday was ages ago! (FYI, it was less than 4 months ago.)

By the way, do you realize how far apart the ages 26 and 28 seem to be? 26 feels like you've just gotten out of your early 20s while 28 feels like a headlong rush to the 30s. Just two years apart but oh, such a huge gap. Right now, for some reason, I feel a lot closer to 30 than to 25.

Not that I feel like I'm getting old. On the contrary, I feel like my notion of what's old gets further and further away. You must've felt that once or twice in your life too. Remember how when you were a senior in high school, the freshmen seemed so young? Or how highschoolers seemed like kids once you were in college?

This is just me doing my own equivalent to "thinking out loud". Half a year ago, I was thinking I was 25! I'm out of that early-20's crowd! And now, barely a year later, I feel like I'm about to enter the 30's club. Weird, isn't it? :) I feel like I should post a reminder on my forehead. Something like this:


Right now, I really don't feel like I'm 26. It's like when I remember I'm 26, I think: No way, I can't possibly be that young! And this is ME speaking. The same ME who thought I was getting oh-so old when I turned 20. Anyway, I'm just being redundant, aren't I? I shouldn't really bore you with these mundane thoughts going through my head at the moment. Besides, age is just a number, right? And... doesn't life begin when you're 30? :D

Friday, September 16, 2011

plans + procrastination

I wasn't able to get tickets to the UAAP Cheerdance Competition which is happening this Saturday. Sad. :(

But on the bright side, I signed the contract for my new part time job yesterday and I've scheduled my shifts earlier. So yay! Money for my luho coming soo-oo-ooon! :P

Aaaaaand my sister promised to go to the 32nd Manila Internnational Book Fair this Saturday. *jumps up and down in excitement kahit na sa totoong buhay eh wala naman nakong perang pambili ng libro*

I've also got some new travel plans that I'm really looking forward to! I'll be spending 5 blissful days in Coron from October 19 to 23 in celebration of a friend's birthday. Birthday shots + beautiful beaches = one hell of a trip. I am soooooo excited!

Btw, I'm supposed to be doing schoolwork right now but my mind can't take schoolwork for a prolonged period of time. I need to have a lot of breaks between studying. Most of the time, mas mahaba pa ung breaks kesa sa pag-aaral na nagagawa ko. Unless I'm cramming. Dun lang talaga tumotodo ang attention ko sa studies. Tsk. Once a crammer, always a crammer.

Pero alam mo ba, sabi sa Wikipedia, "Most healthy teenagers and adults are unable to sustain attention on one thing for more than about 20 minutes at a time, although they can choose repeatedly to re-focus on the same thing". Pero feeling ko, ung attention span ko eh less than the average. Mga 5-10 minutes lang. And my mind constantly refuses to re-focus on studying. I am also a HUGE procrastinator when it comes to my studies. Pag humaharap ako sa mga modules ko bigla akong gaganahang maglinis ng kwarto/ mag-clean-up ng e-mail/ kumain(speaking of pagkain - parang bigla akong nagutom)/ mag-blog (parang ngaun)/ at kung anu-ano pang gawain basta hindi involved sa pag-aaral. Gah. Tamad. Sobra. Magkakadrive na lang ulit ako mag-aral pag malapit (as in super lapit) na ung deadlines ng exams ko. (FYI, home schooled ako. I schedule my exams whenever I want to take them basta maximum is 4 months after enrollment.)

Okay. Sige na. Titigilan ko na ang pagpoprocrastinate. Mag-aaral na ko pramis. Pero maghahanap muna ko ng makakain. Masamang mag-aral ng walang laman ang tyan. (Excuses) Hehe.

~Alright. I'm outta here.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

ambisyosa

I wanna be...

a world traveller.
a landscape photographer.
a bookstore owner.
a professional dubber.
a travel and tours organizer.
a rock band drummer.
a club bartender.
a novel writer.
a multi-language interpreter.

... Oo na. Ako na ang indecisive. :P

Thursday, January 20, 2011

reminders

just want to jot down a list of the things i have to do for the remaining 11 days of january. from my shopping list to school stuff to managing my finances. it is hard not having a planner. i am now reduced to using this blog as a make-shift planner.

1. shop. 
i miss shopping. will do this sometime this week. i will maybe drop by sm north? or megamall? or rob pioneer?
must buys:
- navi planner. boo. more than half a month into 2011 and i still haven't gotten one.
- will scour bookstores for lee kuan yew's from third world to first. for recreational reading. and because i haven't added anything to my book collection lately.
- bb cream? i've been wanting to buy one since last year but have consistently been putting it off because of budget crunches. but then again, i rarely go out anymore so do i really need to get one? oh well. i'm not really a girly-girl who needs her makeup but just this time, vanity is winning.
- if shopping in rob pioneer, get those earrings i've been eying last december at silverworks. because my ultra short hair makes me look like a boy and i need earrings to warn others that i'm not. :P

2. have my globe line reconnected
i've been pretty much unreachable mobile-wise for the past months because i am too damn lazy to have my prepaid account loaded with credits. globe's technohub branch would probably be my best bet for having the shortest queue for customer service. and maybe i can get a chance to meet up with former officemates still working at technohub.

3. get a new bpi savings account
because the old one has been zeroed out and probably closed by now. since i'm getting my globe account reactivated, i need a bpi account so that lazy me won't have to go to a globe branch and queue for payments. weeeh! i will once again have bill-paying powers at the tip of my fingertips through bpi's online banking. :) i'm still trying to decide if i'll open one at the maginhawa branch or at the technohub branch. btw, i'm also keen on doing this 'cause i've lost some of my money for some reason i cannot fathom. i now say it is a bad habit to have cash just hanging around in your house. :(

4. enroll for a new sem!
and yeah, i'm saving the most important for last. must stop procrastinating and get this done!

ayt! i'm all set. :) now if only i can get my ass away from this stupid laptop, i'd maybe actually get something done instead of writing about doing them. :P

Thursday, October 14, 2010

celebrating solitude

deactivated my twitter and plurk accounts. offline on FB and skype. had cellphone turned off for the past week.considering the deactivation of my FB account as a desperate attempt to stifle my laziness. horrified that i have become too dependent with the world wide web. someday, i'll muster up the courage to live a month without internet connection. not really cool trying to separate oneself with the world if you're getting to see updates from friends on your FB wall. me time has suddenly turned into site-surfing-slash-stalking-people-on-FB kinda thing.

will go back to civilization tonight/tomorrow (depending on what time i wake up). being all-holed-up for that long makes me all the more excited to see my friends. i'll probably be quite the chatterbox once i get there. :P but for the moment, my body needs a bit of sleep. :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

priorities

i like making schedules. it helps me get organized and gives me a sense of urgency to get things done. :) my schedules do not get followed most of the time but hey, it still helps me get things done faster than i would've without it. :) so this is me, prioritizing and getting my afternoon all-scheduled-up.

today's sched:

12pm-2pm - watch pretty woman (because yes, i haven't watched it yet)

1pm-2pm - take a bath (yes, i take really long baths)

2pm-4pm - write paper for school

4pm-5pm - pack for QC

*will update this list later to see how much of it i've followed.

time check. 12:03pm time to watch a movie. :)

2:10pm - done with movie. off to take a bath.

2.50pm - done with taking a bath and changing clothes. magsusuklay na lang then off to work on some essays. :)

4:20pm - got distracted by FB chat. ngaun pa lang mag sisimula sa essay.
priorities: an FB chatlog

4.33pm - 2 essays to edit +4 essays left to construct. i decided to get "offline". FB has been too much of a distraction.
plurk status: exhibit A of my attempt to finish the essays. :P

6:15pm - dooooneee! :) not my best work, though. i swear my brain is like a rusted-hasn't-been-used-for-so-long machine. it's in desperate need of  some oiling up! but anyway, here it is!

the final product! agh! see what i did with the spacing?! horrible!

Ayt! imma go get my stuff ready now! looking forward to going back to QC! must leave the house before 7pm! off to get stuff fixed! :)

7:51pm - logging off from the computer. off to kyusi! :)

see, i'm only about 3 hrs behind my schedule! :P

Monday, August 23, 2010

musings of a bored pseudo-student

warning: no sense in this post. read at your own risk

CURRENTLY.
watching tropic thunder. gross but funny.

MUST.
finish studying my module. 3 lessons left.

memorize a hundred page module. (damn. i hate memory works)

write essays. (more than ten essays on the list. down with just one. i am really getting rusty when it comes to writing)

EVERYTHING MUST BE COMPLETED TODAY.
(so why am i wasting time watching a movie?)

SICK..
down with a bad case of colds. i hate being sick. and i've got my moon flow. so really, my productivity rate is doomed to shoot all the way down until i get better.

NOCTURNAL.
thought i fixed my sleeping pattern the past 2 days. unfortunately, i've been in bed the whole afternoon so i'm back on the "night life". night life minus booze / night life minus job that pays premium for living the vampiric life)

BROKE.
sacrificing money for the chance to make my folks happy. still find myself constantly thinking about getting a regular paycheck twice a month.

DEGREE.
one more year. one more year. one more year.
(oh please give me strength. :P)


*this post was created last week. di ko maalala kung bakit di ko na-post. nagtotopak ata connection ko nun.*

Monday, August 9, 2010

on the verge

malapit na akong sumuko.

as in.

konti na lang.... :(


malapit na akong sumuko......

sa pagiging BUM!

ang hirap ng walang sariling pera. :(

eh kasi naman, ung 20k nga na sinusweldo ko dati per month, minsan kinukulang ako eh...

pano nga naman ako mabubuhay sa allowance lang...?

well. at least i am surviving. (for lack of a better term)

pero....

ang mga luho koooo! :P
 
haaaaaay... kaya ko ba 'tong tiisin?

hanggang kelan...?

giving up. i'm on the verge of doing it. someone find me a freaking job!

Saturday, July 24, 2010

PS

thank you..

i know i'm all fucked up.

but you are, indeed, a pleasant surprise...


AND btw, Happy Freakin' Birthday to me! :)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

coelho

today, one of my friends posted this as her status on facebook:

"Don't be someone that searches, finds and then runs away... "
- Paulo Coelho

how timely. i was searching, (posssibly) found what i was looking for and then i ran away.

tsk tsk.

when will i be brave enough to stop running away...?


Thursday, July 1, 2010

hey, you.

i miss you. :( it's funny 'cause you're just right here. still, i do. i do miss you.


Tuesday, June 22, 2010

you are what you decide

decisions, decisions.

i'm being impulsive and reckless again. takes me back to memories of a year ago. around the same time of the year, maybe 2 weeks earlier. same old snap decision to let go of the only stability i know. same reason if we're basing on the papers i've submitted. but the first one as an excuse. this time for real..

thinking twice for the same pros and cons. moolah being a big factor. this time though, i've got better plans laid out. one that i know will work to my advantage in the long run.

more decisions.

stay? move out? move back home?

if i really want to be practical, it's moving back home that's the best option. but to give up the current freedom i have? i don't think i can deal with that. 8 years of living out of my parent's house means hell if i decide to move back in.

i've crossed out the second option. moving to a diff place is gonna be more costly. and i'll miss 13S. a lot.

so i guess that leaves me with stay. which is really what i want to do. and why i went back to work anyway. but then, i'm gonna need a source of income. for the next 12-18 months. but something that doesn't require real work that eats up all my time. maybe a part-time job that pays well. or at least enough for me to get by. the original plan is to do around 2 hrs of tutorial every day. should be enough for my needs. and will give me more than enough time to do what i have to do. and less stress that will make doing stuff easier. but then. i'll let you in on a little secret. i mean, sure, i love to teach. but do i really have what it takes to teach? i mean to teach as an income generating and as something that i wouldn't quit for the next year or so? another little secret: im not as confident as i seem to be. i know my english is better than some people. but do i have it in me to teach it? am i good enough? are my credentials good enough?

off to jobstreet. maybe i'll find something good. :)

back from jobstreet. did not find anything feasible.

i'll provide more details once i've made the final, final decisions.


Monday, June 14, 2010

let's call them A and B

You ask for my opinion. About B whom everyone thinks you should be with.. And A who you want to be with. And i tell you i'm just here to listen. I'm in no position to give you advice on this matter. And you know i tend to argue for both sides. See, with B everything will be so easy. Everyone will support you on this decision. But then, as you said, no one knows about A. And you think of what-ifs and what-could've-beens. But i just don't have the heart to tell you.. I can't bear to say it to your face.. A might just be in for the ride.

I know you tend to be all-confused. And you tend to overthink the situation.. And i wish you can just go with the flow. But i know you too much.. A hopeless romantic with a devil-may-care attitude. And i know how you get intrigued with uncertainty, with things that you can never really be sure about. But for once, just for once, can you try to not think about this? I  would hate to see you cry. And all for the same reason. It's becoming a vicious cycle and this A and B bullshit looks like one of those lame repeats.

I hope you read this and understand. But part of me wishes you don't. See, my mind is a crazy load of shit. And I'm as fucked up as you are. Maybe because i understand. I've felt your pain. I've seen you when you cry. You may be able to fool everyone else. But i always see right through you. I should. I've been sticking up for you all your life.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

life has turned routinary..

no more impromptu drinking sessions.. no more after-shift lunches just because i want to spend time with my friends.. no more spending hours in the mall simply because i don't want to go home yet..

my life has become routinary.. work, go home, promise myself i'll study for my exams but ending up not studying at all because i'm too tired (and still sick)..

waaaah! i really should throw lazy me outside the window and get my ass on a seat right in front of my modules..

hey me! do not be a slacker! do not sleep the hours away! and don't forget to take time to smell the roses! :)

just a friendly reminder from me to me. fyi, i'm not too stressed out. yeah, seriously, I'm NOT! :P

Monday, October 19, 2009

estudyanteng hinde

Ang hirap palang mag-aral mag-isa. Unlike sa normal school na babasahin mo yung readings mo tapos ididisscuss ng prof sa klase. Syempre pag nasa class na, ang ididiscuss na lang ng professor eh ung mga importanteng information at ung mga most likely na lalabas sa exam. Plus, pwede ka or ung classmates mo na magtanong sa prof or sa isa't isa ng mga bagay na hindi mo naintindihan. Kumbaga, may karamay ka. :)

Pero madali din naman magself-study in a way. Kasi super hawak mo talaga yung oras mo. Like kapag nararamdaman mo na saturated na ang utak mo, pwede kang mag-break anytime or change subject muna. Eh sa traditional school, alangan namang sabihin mo sa prof mo na "Sir, break  muna tau sa paglelecture mo. Ayaw na mag-absorb ng utak ko eh. Dun muna ko sa math class. Tandaan mo na lang sir kung san tau tumigil sa discussion." Haha. Laughtrip naman un. :)

Nakakatamad lang talaga mag-aral mag-isa. Kelangan mo talaga ng disiplina. Ang weird pa ng modules ko. Hindi ko matapos sagutan ung progress check na hindi ako tumitingin sa answer key. Hehe. Ang daya ko. Pati sarili ko dinadaya ko na. Anu ba yan, may matutunan kaya ako dito? Pero kasi naman, inaattempt ko naman sagutan without looking pero ang weird ng ibang tanong eh. Like eto:
It was in ______ that the theory of dualism emanated.
Ang sagot ko, the 18th century. Un pala, place ung hinahanap. So England ung sagot. Pero kung babalikan mo ung module, mas nag-focus sya sa dates instead of places. Sabagay, kung titingnan mo ang question, grammatically eh mas bagay na sagot ang England kesa sa 18th century. Eto mas matindi:
During emotional stress, regardless of nature, many of the physical reactions are _________.
Ang sagot ko jan, instantaneous. At matagal kong inisip yan. Ang dami kasing possible answers. Pero may nabasa kasi ako sa module na:  
Under emotional stress, just like in reflex action, bodily reactions are instantaneous because of the direct link between the stimuli and the organs.
Pero mali ang sagot ko. Ang correct answer ay common. Parang kinukutya ako ng answer key at kulang na lang eh lagyan nya ng "duh" sa tabi ng answer. At take note, walang nabanggit na common sa buong module or anything that implies physical reactions being common.

Hay.. O baka naman hindi na ako marunong mag-read between the lines o mag-deduce ng information from what has been stated dahil sa tagal na natengga ang brain cells ko. (idagdag mo pa ang damage ng alcohol.)

I guess malalaman ko lang talaga kung mahirap or madali ang distance learning once mag-final exam ako. Kasi my final grade will be based only on the final exam and the module tests. (Iba ung module test sa sinasabi ko na progress check kanina. Progress checks are the ones you do after completing each lesson. Kasama to sa module at may answer key sa next page. Ung module test naman eh parang take home exams. Walang answer key at ibibigay un sau kasabay ng modules upon enrollment. You can answer them anytime basta make sure that you submit it before you take your final exam.)

Speaking of exams, nung nag-aaral pa ko sa UP, sangkatutak na sample exams ang sinasagutan ko before each exam sa math at stat. Pero ngaun, i have no idea what to expect. Kasi kahit ung non-math/stat subjects, by the time naman na mag-finals ka mejo alam mo na kung pano magpa-exam ung prof eh.. Pero ngaun, naku. One time bigtime ka sa final exam. :(

Haaaaaaay. Right now, I'm taking a break from reading the modules. General Psychology lang muna ang inaaral ko eh. Saka na ung ibang subjects/courses. Naisip ko kasi one by one ko na lang aaralin ung mga subject then take one (or maybe two) exam/s at a time para nakafocus ako sa subject and fresh pa sa utak ko ung pinag-aralan ko. Ay hindi ko pala na-mention kanina na we can schedule our final exams. Anytime yun as long as within 4 months after enrollment. (trimestral kasi sila eh.) Naglimit na din ako ng 2 weeks for each subject. Wish ko lang makapag-stick ako with the schedule I made for myself. Madali pa ngaun kasi syempre simula pa lang at medyo excited pa ko. Plus, wala akong work ngaun.. Naku, goodluck na lang sa kin once mag-work ako ulit.

Anyway, Aja! :) Kaya ko 'yan! :)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

pink slip screams clean up!

from now on, i promise to be organized.. and yes, i say that after making a lot of mess (see evidence below) while looking for a particular pink slip which happened to be at in an envelope in the last paper bag i looked in.




















just to give you a rundown, these pictures are the product of 7 years of my life that you're looking at. breaking it down, that's 4 years spent in college and 3 working years. these are the piles of garbage mixed with sentimental stuff and important + not-so-important documents. 7 years of shit that have slowly accumulated in various places i've rented in and finally been brought home almost a month ago.. and yes, lazy me is just starting to dig into these stuff to have some semblance of organization in my life.

i have been dreading organizing this stuff beforehand as i've always known that it's going to be such a nightmare to have it all cleaned up but i can't put it off any longer. i realized this because of 1 thing : i have to get back to work soon.

and so you wonder : how does that relate to each other?

well, it's pretty simple. remember the pink slip i mentioned earlier? that's the slip containing my social security number. it takes forever to get an SSS ID so while i don't have an ID, that would be the only legitimate proof of my SSN and thus would be needed once i get a job.

i have most of the important documents in an envelope but i've forgotten where i put the pink slip so i started rummaging through all bags, paper bags, envelopes and plastic bags that i've brought home with me. i swear, i spent hours looking for it. and just as i was about to lose hope; a glimpse in the last paper bag showed a very familiar-looking, extremely tattered brown envelope which i used during a job hunting expedition i did years ago. i opened the envelope and there it was : the pink slip i've spent a great deal of my time looking for.




so to prevent this from happening again in the future, i have decided to get everything organized and throw away all the junk stuff (which is probably more than half of the stuff anyway. just the brief inspection i did through each bag while looking for the pink slip shouts TRASH more often than not.). and yes, i'm gonna get started on it ASAP.

ASAP.

ooops. i mean right after this blog is done.. and oh! do you see the time? it's 3:04 am. i must've spent more than 4 hours looking for the thing. probably explains why i'm sooo sleepy. so i'll just make u a deal. i'll bring up all the stuff in my room and i'll have 'em organized tomorrow. deal?

yeah. i know. you're thinking that i'm being lazy again and won't get the job done, huh? well watcha gonna do? a girl's gotta sleep right?



ugh. i hate this but i promise i'm gonna organize this tomorrow. i swear. sleep's just taking over me at the moment.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

taking time to remember and be grateful

in 2006, when typhoon milenyo hit the philippines, i was renting an apartment with some friends in quezon city and was working in taguig. i remember taking a cab (in qc) to work (in taguig) and the cab i was in was almost hit by a tree along katipunan. the tree along the sidewalk was uprooted and landed on the road right after my cab passed. scary, but what my family back home in cavite experienced much worse. i remember being so worried as our phone was out of reach but at the same time appeasing myself, reminding myself that our town never gets flooded and it might just be areas near rivers that were affected.. i was watching the news and it was declared that my hometown was already declared under state of calamity and news of people dying was being shown all over. when i finally got home to our province, it was a shock to see that there were watermarks on the walls in our house. the flood was almost waist-high and our PC, and other electronics were all in the backyard: no longer of any use to us. electricity was out. landlines not working. heck, even water supply was not available. turns out that people were so unprepared for the flood. it has never happened and so they were not expecting it. unfortunately, a nearby dam almost overflowed and the gates to it were opened, thus a fast flood was unleashed, totaling most of the area's properties.

up until june of this year, i was renting a house in pasig, near ever gotesco and the cainta boundary and was working in mandaluyong. i'm currently taking a break from working and have been staying in cavite since then. when the rain poured harder, we took all electronics and other important stuff up to our bedrooms, which were a bit higher than the rest of the house. after we have taken all our stuff to safety, we went to the main road, waiting for news. it was kind of a hold-your-breath moment. any inkling that the dam was gonna overflow would have sent us all running back to our houses and make sure none of our stuff gets harmed by the flood. fortunately, before the dam reached its limits, the rain let down. it was as if a collective sigh could be heard all over. the crowd by the main road got thinner and thinner as time passed by until ultimately, the rain stopped. earlier today, i've been watching the news and found out that marikina-cainta-antipolo-pasig-taguig area was hit the hardest. and that they were using ever gotesco as a place to give out relief goods to people. and they were showing video footage of areas including de castro subdivision, with houses that would need boats to get to. ever gotesco was actually within walking distance from the place i used to stay in. and that place was in de castro subdivision.

i guess i can say that i'm lucky. and it makes me feel overwhelmed and grateful and sad at the same time. and frustrated upon reading comments that the media is simply hyping up the events, showing the worst of the typhoon's effects and that people they know living in the philippines told them that it wasn't as bad as media makes it up to be. it's frustrating because it IS that bad. they were probably speaking to those who don't live in the affected areas. or because of the fact that filipinos are typically optimistic in nature. that though tragedies hits our lives, we still put on a brave and happy face for all to see. but what you see on the news IS real. and it may even be worse in places that media couldn't reach.

i feel for all those affected by the typhoon. what our family experienced with milenyo wasn't anywhere near what they are experiencing right now. some have lost all their furniture and would have to start from scratch in rebuilding their homes. but sadder is the fact that other's loss isn't simply material things. some have lost family.

so join me and hundreds of thousands of filipinos in praying that the typhoons which may be hitting the country this week would not be as bad as this as well as for the recovery of those affected by Ondoy.


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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

writer's block

bakit ba nagkakaron ng writer's block. sa ngaun, meron akong tatlong blog posts na hindi ko matapos tapos. i have the idea, and the details of what i want to show in the blog entries. BUT. the words get in the way (chos). kaya naman facebook na lang muna ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. socializing and gaming all rolled in one. plus hindi ka mahuhuli sa news. just browse on ur news feed at para ka na ding nanood ng news+celeb gossip. hehe.

aun. this has got to be my shortest post. (and if you've been reading my blog, alam mo na mala-nobela akong magpost.) just wanted to drop by and write something coherent pero parang puro ramblings lang muna kaya kong gawin ngaun.. :(

i'll be back soon. hopefully with something that doesn't include me rambling about nothing. :)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

i dream a dream


yan ang dream ko. hehe. this was taken sa condo na tinitirahan ng isang friend ko.. naiinggit ako kaya kinuhanan ko ng picture.. pero seryoso, pangarap kong magkaron ng sariling library sa loob ng sarili kong bahay. sana in the next 2 years, makapagpatayo na ko ng bahay. i don't have any specifications sa house except that it needs a library. :D

at ung library, gusto ko as in super dami ng books. ung tipong madaming rows of shelves na pang-library talaga. tapos arranged by author then book title ung books. parang ganito:


at gusto ko wall to wall carpet ung library ko. tapos may dark heavy curtains.. tapos may PC. tapos may area na maraming throw pillows na pwedeng higaan habang nagbabasa.. haayy.. heaven. :D cguro di na ko lalabas ng library ko pag nagkataon.

so this is me unleashing my inner geek. ung nanay ko, dahil hindi mahilig magbasa, hindi maintindihan ang addiction ko sa pagbili at pagcocollect ng books. which is really sad dahil wala ako sa bahay namin sa cavite nung binaha ang bahay namin dahil sa milenyo. ang dami ko ding books na tinangay ng baha. di nila naisalba dahil di naman importante para sa kanila.. :( i had to start rebuilding my book collection tuloy.


aun pa pala. more specifications on the construction of my library : it has to be sa 2nd floor ng house para bumaha man, kahit wala ako sa bahay. andun pa rin ang books ko.. now all i have to worry about is making sure na fire-proof ang room without using water.. hay. (btw, burning books reminds me of the book fahrenheit 451 by ray bradbury. have you read this book?)

pero kelan pa kaya mare-realize ang dream ko na to? sa ngaun kasi konti pa lang ang books ko..below are pics of my books.

the first pic (upper left) has 2 half-rows of books which are mostly for academic purposes. (plus a few other books. btw, the bin laden book is not mine. i just borrowed it from a friend and must be returnes soon.) the red envelopes contains readings in college (specifically spanish10, stat131, and a photocopied MGB). the second picture (upper right) contains 2 rows of hardbound and "big" books.. and the last pic (bottom center) contains 3 rows of "pocketbooks" aka my paperback books.




haaay.. kelan kaya dadami ang books ko para makapuno ng kahit 3 shelves man lang? mukhang kelangan ko magbooksale every week. hehe. :D ayway. reality check muna. tama na muna pangangarap. (sa totoong buhay, gutom na ako at maghahanap ng makakain.)

Note : library shelves pic was taken from Mount Angel Abbey Library's site.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

header : the evolution

the one on the top of the page? the sunset on the sea?

yes, i took that photo. and no, i'm usually not that good a photographer.

it was originally from this pic. 'twas taken during our trip back to manila (to be specific, on the ferry from balanacan to dalahican) from marinduque.


don't you just love the sunrays peeping through the clouds..?

anyway.. i love sunsets. there's something dramatic and eerie and beautiful and haunting about it. something so compelling and amazing and all sorts of <insert word here>+ing. :D for me, it's the thought of the sunset being the meeting point of two different things. where day and night coexist. where it is no longer the sun's time but not yet the moon's. well, the sunrise is pretty much the same but i'm rarely up by that time. plus, sunrise is all hopeful and happy whereas the sunset is more moody and sad.. so being the emotional crap-tastic person that i am, (guess what!) i am more drawn to sunsets..


so i cropped the pic above and added the word authenticraps (which is my blog title, duh.) so that i could use it as my blog's header. i wasn't really in the mood to photoshop the pic properly.. so this was the resulting pic..

 authenticraps v1.1

and yeah, i know. it's still boring so i decided to add some oomph to the photo but i'm too lazy to do proper effects so i just smudged the edges a bit and voila. here is the final (as of now) version of my header.


(which i proudly call) authenticraps v1.2

well, the smudged edges kinda took away the sunrays (which i sooo love) but i think it sort of highlighted the sun..i still think authenticraps v1.1's photo looks better but the edges were a bit too plain for me.. so i guess i'm just gonna settle with authenticraps v1.2 at the moment..